Tuesday, December 25, 2012


Well, we made it through our first Christmas without Noah. He was greatly missed. It was nice to see Theo (Noah's younger brother) open his gifts with excitement. Steven and I agreed that the gifts we received, although they were all great, just didn't seem like a big deal now. Imagine what heaven is like for Christmas. Do you think that material things even compare to the glory and celebration there? That's where my son is. Of course I was sad today because he wasn't here to enjoy all of the gifts I had bought him.  It will never be the same without him.  He's not sad, though. There are no tears in heaven. I posted this thought on facebook the other day, "I wonder what Christmas is like in Heaven." A few of my favorite responses were:
  • "I'm sure Noah will have a lot to show us when we get there."
  • "Whatever it is Noah can enjoy it with his Heavenly enhanced peripheral vision." (He had recently discovered that he could use his peripheral vision to see people next to him. He thought this was a special superhero power. :) )
  • "It's a bit brighter and happier this year because Noah is there with his wonderful smile."
  • "Biggest birthday party ever...and now they have lots of balloons." (At his Life Celebration we released lots and lots of orange and blue balloons at the end. Those are his favorite colors.)

Sometimes I go into his room at night to read a book to him. I don't know if he can hear me, but it helps me. Last night I had the intention of going in there and reading The Night Before Christmas, but as soon as I opened the door and looked at the books another one caught my eye. Just In Case You Ever Wonder by Max Lucado. I had read it to Noah several times. It's written from the perspective of a parent to the child, teaching him about how God made him special and how much he is loved. The most important part to me was at the very end:

"And God wants me to make sure you know about heaven. It's a wonderful place. There are no tears there. No monsters. No mean people. You never have to say, 'good-bye,' or 'good night,' or 'I'm hungry.' You never get cold or sick or afraid. In heaven you are so close to God that He will hug you, just like I hug you. It's going to be wonderful. I will be there, too. I promise. We will be there together, forever. Remember that... just in case you ever wonder."

I don't think it was a coincidence that I picked that book instead. It's so amazing how God uses things in our lives to help us. What an awesome God.

My sweet Noah,

Today we celebrated Christmas. We missed you being here. I bet you are having so much fun celebrating WITH Jesus. I LOVED the snowman napkin holder you made me at Home Depot with Daddy. You did a great job! I'm so proud of you. I remember when you told me a few months ago that you were going to buy me some mixing bowls for Christmas. I love those, too. Thank you. 

I love you so much Noah. 

Merry Christmas,


This picture was taken last Christmas. He brings me great joy.


The Mrs. said...

I know he is in Heaven just having a blast! I can't wait to see him again soon! I don't know if I'll have any control over what I say when I get to Heaven, but I plan on saying, "Hey, guess what, Noah? I'm here!" I have a feeling he is one of the most animated singers in the heavenly choir! I know that while we are here on Earth, we will probably never understand why this happened, but we will understand it better by and by. He will always be with us, and his influence will live on forever! I am a better person for having known him! None of that probably helps right now, but I just can't get the picture of him running down the streets of gold out of my head.

ann said...
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ann said...

My dear Jenny, Steven and Theo I mourn the loss of Noah along with you. Noah was such a amazing little guy. One day, when Cindy and I were visiting you, Jenny and the boys took us shopping. Jenny and Cindy were walking up ahead and grandma was behind (a slow walker). Noah looked back and took hold of my hand and said "Grandma I will always be by your side." I know that he will always be in my heart and that I will miss him very much. I miss those beautiful brown eyes and the smile that lit up the whole room. I loved how he watched out after his little brother Theo. I know that he is in the arms of our Lord and Ssvior and I will be so glad when we see him again.
Love you my beautiful little grandson. I will watch over your Mom, Dad and Theo.